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It’s the end of third week of my last semester. I think I’m getting used to this hectic study life and I’m actually starting to love it since the day that I realized that I really learnt a lot form my lecturers. Seriously, I really do enjoy studying and reading but I hate the part where I need to take the exam on October and November with such big gap in between papers. I will be getting my AS exam result on August 10 and hopefully I won’t get disappointed by myself like last time again. My mom even told me that if I get pass, it’s okay already but it isn’t okay for me. I was trained to get a good results as in A and B since I was small. If I failed or get anything lower than C, I will get caned by my mom and she just won’t sign the exam papers. Thus, I got extra cane by my teacher just because my mom didn’t want to sign it. I was so innocent at that time and I had to admit that I sometimes really doesn’t like my mom because she just won’t satisfy with my personality but it’s okay. I know she did that for my own good since my dad wasn’t at home since I was small.

Last Thursday and Friday were my classmates’ birthday. Actually, I wanted to go to both of the celebrations but it seems like I’m not that welcome by them. Thursday’s was last minute and no transport so I still can accept but Friday’s I was really disappointed with them. I really wanted to go and hang out with them but they said no seat available for me in the car already. Imagine these 2 days I rushed back to my hostel to change my clothes and rushed back to college to wait for them, they called me and said that no seat is available in the car anymore. I know it’s just Sunway Pyramid which I can walk to there if I want to but the mood of celebration with them just gone after they treated me like that. I really wonder what my problem is! I put so much effort just to be around with my friends and I got ditched for no reason. Oh well, I think I should back to my one-lady life after all. I shouldn’t have expected so much from my friends. After all, they are in their own group and I don’t belong to any group like last time anymore.

Anyway, I went to Sunway Pyramid by myself to walk around and buy some grocery. Then, I went to my college’s event, ‘One Global Village’ which is sport carnivals between 56 institutions from Selangor. I thought of just visiting and watch the matches but I bumped into my VAD friends. So I went off to the VAD site with them from 5pm until 1.30am in the morning. At least I really felt better after helping those injured students and got some friends to talk to and laughed with. I was really exhausted after I came back to hostel but it’s worth it. I get to know them more and get closer with them.

So here I am now. My room mate is going to watch MU match later and I’m stuck in Sunway. I really wish that I could go out to KL and have a nice walk around. As long as I’m not alone, I would feel better than now. Yupe, I really feel tired in treating people so good and nicely because some of them just don’t know how to appreciate it. I know I sounded emo but this emo-ness makes me miss Brennan more! I’m so going to hug him when I meet him after he comes back to Malaysia!

Listening to : Heaven Knows

*will try to edit it next time because the applications just won't load completely.

I just finished my one hour class. I’ll be going out later to take my photo stated books and I’m still wondering how am I going to pay it because I don’t have enough money. Argh!!! Oh well, I really hope that I could reduce my stress today by finishing my homework as soon as possible. No doubt that I feel sleepy right now and I must tahan until evening. Tomorrow still got extra class to survive. Aih~~ Life~~

Yesterday I went to watch ‘Ice Age 3’ with my friends. We were laughing non-stop while watching the movie. It was really funny and nice. I didn’t watch the 3D version because the ticket was quite expensive here and the first time in my life to book tickets using my handphone. Amazing huh??

Seriously, I don’t know what to type about. I just realized that I will be having psychology test for tomorrow and next Tuesday. I didn’t even complete my psychology exercise. A-level students really seem no life so that’s why we are labeled as ‘Nerd’ by other courses. Come on~ please understand that we are rushing for time to finish the syllabus. I’ll be having 2 week of Hari Raya break so I think my classmates will ask for one week of extra class because we really don’t have time to lose due to our exam which is on October.

I purposely bought The Star to read today. Math and Science are back in to BM from 2012. I’m grateful because I’m from the first batch of Math and Science in English. My youngest sister will be in Form 1 at 2012. Too bad for her. Actually, I prefer Math and Science to be taught in English so that there is at least a hope that Malaysian would be able to produce more scientists to develop the country. The government should create some solutions to help the rural area students to achieve the same standard as urban area students. Not just change everything back to BM and think the problem is solved. The ministers somehow treat education like a ball by kicking here and there.

Anyway, I will need to see my lecturers now to get money for the photocopied books. Have a nice weekend everyone. I fulfilled my promise by updating twice a week, didn’t i? Hehe.. =)

Yesterday got an hour of biology extra class which I learnt about ultrafiltration in the kidney and how the kidney reabsorbed the nutrients back to blood vessel. Okay. I was just crapping because I just woke up from my 11 hours of sleeping. This week is only the starting of hectic semester. Being the most senior in my course, we need to play a role model to those new comers and of course, I would say to them it’s hard, just to make them be prepared. Haha. I’m so bad~

Finally, I managed to watch Transformer 2 yesterday night at Sunway Pyramid. Although I got the first row of seats, I just don’t care because I waited for 10 days to watch it! It was totally awesome!!!! Next movies in my mind would be Ice Age 3 and Harry Potter. I know both are blockbuster movies so it’s better late than none. Or maybe I just could download it after a few months. XD I will see how the situation goes because I’m getting busy day by day. Even my friends asked me why I rarely online, they were wondering whether I was busy with assignment. How I wish I was busy with assignment but NO, my course doesn’t have any assignment to do.

Oh well, yesterday a lot of scholars came to report themselves to enter hostel. So this year, my college pre-u courses are full with scholars. I don’t want to say much about how they sponsored so many students to come here study. There is no point for me to complain because I’m graduating end of this year so life is about moving on eventually. =) They were accompanied by their parents until night. Oh my god! Seriously come on lar! How old are you? 18? 17? Old enough to take care of yourself lar please… Adui~ So pampered… different generation although they are younger than me by a few years…

If you are wondering which course I will choose for my degree, I have few options in my mind actually but I don’t want to aim for it first because I really need to think deeply and correctly. My psychology lecturer suggested me to go for nursing but my dad doesn’t like the idea somehow. Don’t ask me why. He suggested me to go into tourism. *Aiyar… as long it’s related to social and helping people, I would consider it. So don’t waste time thinking about it first. Gao dim my A-level on November first then I’ll go on for holiday for a while and then only think about which course should I go and which university.*

I didn’t do my homework at all since yesterday and now. Later going for badminton and I’m definitely going to do the homework tonight and tomorrow. I don’t have time to be lazy and I’m starting to appreciate the time when I’m alone. =) Psychology test on next Tuesday! I kinda like Abnormal Psychology which we learnt about trauma, phobia, mood disorders and etc.

Anyway, have a nice weekend everyone!

-No regret in studying here. Love it! -

Hey peepz! I’m back to type my latest update for a while because I still have a lot of homework waiting me to do. Oh well, new semester begins yesterday and it was really stressful since yesterday. Every lecturer is trying to make us to do their exercises as if we are only taking one subject. I’ll be having my psychology test on next Tuesday. What to do… we are the only seniors in the program and everything must go like bullet train because we don’t have much time left before our mock exam which is on September. I got my A2 exam timetable and the gap is even longer! Let’s hope I won’t be slacking around like what I did in AS.

College is quiet now. Almost all of the courses are having their holiday now so you could see that you won’t need to wait for the next lift. New students from July intake are coming next week. At that time, the college definitely going to be crowded by new faces and new lecturers. I don’t think I will get to know new friend from the new intake because I just don’t have time for it. I don’t even have time to go Pyramid to do my grocery shopping.

Why am I so busy even it’s only the second day of new semester? Because I will need to study every now and then. My biology lecturer said she won’t be teaching us like last time. Now, she will gives us notes including the exercises and we need to go back home read and do. Then, she will discuss it on the next day. As for my psychology lecturer, she wanted to have a test every week just to make sure we could do the exercises and write it out since it would be a 3 hours paper in actual exam. Lastly, my math lecturers. Both of them are nice but they still giving us a lot of questions to do because math is all about practicing the methods and formula.

So there goes my life. Hectic. Busy. Lack of sleep. Mind can’t rest well at night. Stress. Lonely (I’m alone in my unit now). Anxious.

Below are some of the pictures taken on the last day of my conference. Credit to Aaron. I fall in love with pro-camera already. The quality of pictures are awesome and it's so nice. I know..The price need to be at least 4-digits and I didn't plan to buy it either. Just admiring those cameras. XD Ya, I have to sleep late and wake up early on those 3 days and I ended my holiday just like that. No more next time! I promise myself that I won’t get distract by other stuff easily anymore.

Time to study and do my homework now. Tata for now~ =)
-Aaron and me doing the slide show-

-People who attended the conference. Thank you guys! -


-The Secretariat and Volunteer Team. Thanks for the effort everyone! -